til christmas

have you ever felt like you want something, you want it really bad.. and i dont mean just wanting for a little while and then getting over it .. i mean your heart is longing for it, your mind is set upon it ,when it comes up something inside you moves...
this is how i feel right now ..
there is something i want ..
but i am told i have to wait for it , i cant have it yet
its like when someone tells you they have a gift for you but you cant open it til Christmas
you can sense its somewhere in the house, you know its there somewhere but you cant see it because its hidden really well,your anxious to get it, you cant stop thinking about , you start imagining what this gift is like .. your tempted to start looking around ,but deep down you know you have to wait till you get it... all you can do have faith that there is something for you, and that you are going to like it..
im currently studying in a university ..and its ok , for now i know this is where im sposed to be
it was hard in the begining,but as the this first semester ends.. and i am looking foward to christmas break , i see that i am starting to settle in .. ive made new friends and ive learned things i never thought i was capable of doing, i dont get lost anymore .. and im learning to make the best of it ..but i can honestly tell you, i dont know if i will stay here .. not that i dont want to finish my college education ..but i want so much more.. something inside tells me, your here for now .. but your not here for good .. you will go ..but just wait for the right time, wait till i show you where ..wait till i show you how..
this is where i wait .. and this is where my faith has to kick in .. i have a promise, i have a calling
and i know .. no matter where i am .. no matter what .. everything is Going to be ok ..
God has a plan for me .and .i know its perfect...When God wants something to happen He WILL make it happen.
i have hope, and i have hope because he is in me ..