What am i doing? Where am i?

So i havent really written anything in a while and by a while i mean 6 months ..why? Well i was getting my mind and soul and emotions getting blown up and i was meeting the man i talk about in my blogpost and the man i want to do life with (Jesus)... I remenber agreeing with myslef ,making a personal commitment to write in this blog everything that i have learned and all that i experienced ..but its really hard to put into words ..and much more to put into a blogpost..i remenber trying to start a blogpost one time, i was feeling him feeling his prescence ..i was getting my mind blown and my emotions where all over the place (as in i couldnt stop crying,for some reason) but i couldnt even describe what i felt ..i didnt really know what was going on ..all i knew in that moment was that Jesus was close to me ...he went there ..to a place i never let anyone in and he liked it ..and it felt good ..it wasnt bad tears ( its really hard to explain) and this would happen quite a few times during this 6 months i disapeared in ...
What was i doing? u might be wondering..well i was (and currently am )in an internship in a ministry called IHOP (international house of prayer) (not the pancake place) in kansascity ,missouri ..the internship that i am in is called one thing and the best way to describe it is ...during six months you eat ,breathe ..Jesus ...u get teachings in the morning (and sometimes in the evening depending on the schedule) and then later u go to this place called the prayerRoom where u get to talk to Jesus about what u learned ..this is where the real deal happens ..where my heart gets blasted ..where i cry my eyes out and where the knowledge in my head goes to my heart..oh and the prayerRoom is ALWAYS on..(as in 24/7) when i was trying to explain to people what exactly i was coming to do here in kansas city i had trouble explaining this ..no i am not in the prayer room 24/7..and no i am not always praying even when i am in there ..there is cool music going on ..people worshiping Jesus ..and intercession ..most of the time both At the same time ..(most of the time i would just give them the link and tell them to see it for themselves ,yes its online 24/7) (the link is ihop.org/prayerroom.com) its sooo wierd and by wierd i mean bittersweet to think that there is litterally less than a week in a half left of this internship ..i still remener the first week ..i dont feel like her anymore ..im still zoe..but i feel different ,and i like it :) ..its gonna be hard to leave this place is soo unique ..in my 20 years of life ive never seen any place like this,but i quickly realized that the only thing that made this place special was the people ..and the yes in thier hearts ..and that they where all doing it together..but Jesus was in the center of everything (and i mean everything) and well in a place where Jesus is being worshipped 24/7 what else can we expect?..i love it :) this has to happen everywhere in the world ..Jesus is worthy of 24/7 ..its not too much ..in fact its not enough ..if human beings where able to it should be 24/8 or 64/90 ..he is worthy of it all .. :) i hope to see someday IHOP Honduras ,how?i have no idea ..but it should and if God wants to it will :) someday