the type

i recently discovered my love for flyleaf, im not usually into hard rock ( sorta).. well im not that into screamo.. im ok with a little screaming in the background.. but not too much .. but i do like a little edge.., well anyyywaay.. the other day i was on this website and i saw flyleaf had a new album out ,( well sorta, it was an old post the album came out a while ago, but new to me ) ive heard some flyleaf before .. the popular ones .. All around me .. which i loved for a while... and cassie .. but i never had any interest in them as a band or any of their other music.. i don't know why though .. i guess i thought they where to" hardcore" for me or something ..
but Ive learned a couple things since then, i can like all sorts of music .. its ok to like a little bit of everything,
its easy to label people according to the music they listen to,the thing is if i did that i don't know where i would fall into.. i like everything .. from Taylor swift, to animal collective.. to aarmin van buuren, to random indie music to frank Sinatra according to Wikipedia: stereotypes are standardized and simplified conceptions of groups based on some prior assumptions." why do we insist on putting people in boxes? giving them labels, and sorting them out like if they where articles of clothing .. people are way to complex to be put into one definite category .. we cant know the whole story just by looking at someones appearance, yes, the music we listen to can show a glimpse about who we are ... but there is more to a person then just the music they listen to, what they wear, what they eat.. who they hang out it with .. theese factors may be a part of it .. but not they are not the whole package ...it cant be that simple ... we have soo much inside us .. if we rely on theese thing to find our identity, we will loose it .. because .. these things change all the time .. people change; circumstances change .. and before we know it we don't know who we are .find ourselves trying to be somebody else, but its exhausting .. emotionally draining ..and worst of all .. we feel fake, where posing, .. why do we do this?, when we where created to be ourselves.. fearfully and wonderfully made .. loved since the moment you where in ur mothers womb, love unconditional, love that will never leave .. ever.. you don't have to pretend to be someone your not .. because he knows you .. more than you know yourself.. he knows .. he knows your insecurities .. he know your fears. he knows the deepest parts of your soul, the things you would never want anyone to see .. he knows and he doesn't judge you .. he feels for you .. when your heart breaks, his breaks too .. he loves you that much,
he love you for who you are.. his creation .. his work of art..
if you think you don't matter.. if you feel like you are uninteresting .. if you feel like a nobody ..
you feel like someone who will never become something relevant.... know.. this is a lie.. know .. know that you are so much more.. you where meant for greatness.. you have a reason to live , God doesnt create "accidents" God doesn't create "mistakes" and you where places on this earth for a reason .. stop thinking less of yourself and start living up to what you where meant to be .. Gods beloved, his son, his daughter .. to him you are unique .. special, if you let him in, if you let him break down your shell, let him break what you feel as a thick layer of protection ... your big wall.. he sees right through it anyway ..
if you feel like you don't belong anywhere.. if you feel like nobody really knows you, the real you .. well he does..
and you don't need to pretend.. he loves you already.. you belong with him,
we where meant to live with him .. to know him .. to love him and have him love you,
dont settle for less..
search for him and he will find you let him wrap his arms around you..this is where you belong.. this who you are..

Flyleaf - In The Dark Lyrics - 07

This Beautiful Republic--Surrender Saved My Life

marshmellow

imagine your in a campfire with your buddies..sitting in a circle around the fire..... marshmallows.. they're sweet.... sugar roasted on a stick.. theyre delicious....u lick your lips to get it all .. its a quick treat.. a moment of yum.
just like when you hear song you love, read something that make you go awww, laughing with friends, going down waterslide, snuggling with your cat,having your doggy get excited when you get home...finding an outfit that you like,wining a game, a cute guy,having things go your way ..having a moment of bliss... life's little peaks ..
but is this really all there is?
these things are great, they give life a little umphff ..a little excitement ..they are marshmellows..one moment you have them .you enjoy them ...but then they're gone...
can i want more than marshmellows? am i too serious?, too deep?.. yes i love these moments.. but can there be more? if I Admit this will anyone understand?too much? there is a possibility that i might be left alone on the campfire ..
wether we know it or not ..we all have a longing for something greater..but sometimes we choose to ignore it..and wait for the next thrill.. the next marshmellow ..until the bag runs out..all along feeling shallow ..truth is we all have some sort of depth.. even if we choose not to see it .. inside us we want something that will last .. not for a moment..not for a second.. fluffiness is okay in the begining..until it fades..then you want more..
i used to live for marshmellows.. and i sometimes i still do..but i when i do .. it feels like a giant part of me is unfulfilled.. because i was meant for so much more.. we all are
there is more.. there is so much more besides myself,.. there is so much more beyond just a momentary thrill ..we just need to open our eyes..