abandonment

this is what counts , this is what i want ..
how far can i Go?
God is looking at my heart
at the end of the day .. did i learn to love ?
one thing ..

sustain

Cover me - there's a battlefield ahead.
Cover me - there's an enemy that wants to have my head.
Why do You let evil have its way? How can You let orphans die in vain?
When will You give answers for the pain?
Is there a place where hope can still sustain? ...where hope can still sustain?
Cover me as I walk this out alone - as I search deserted streets -
for a place to call my own.
I've wandered over all the earth - like an angel without wings.
I'm a song without a voice. I'm a ghost without a grave.
Why do You let evil have its way? How can You let orphans die in vain?
When will You give answers for the pain?
Is there a place where hope can still sustain? ...where hope can still sustain?

So please come, take the burdens that have held me down so long... so long...

And if I scream Your name again, will You reach my bloody hands?
God, I'm holding on to You - for You can make me new.
If I scream Your name again, will You reach my bloody hands?
God, I'm holding to Your arms. I've been holding on so long.
(If I scream Your name again, will You reach my bloody hands?
God, I'm holding on to You - for You can make me new.)
I've been holding on so long.
(If I scream Your name again, will You reach my bloody hands?
God, I'm holding on to You - for You can make me new.)
I've been holding on so long.

fire

In the grace of God, our experience of Gods love is not to be quenched nor drowned by any flood. many have a quenched heart in which their ability to experience God love has been drowned. the truth about songs unlocks our heart by the fire of God

Set me (Jesus) as a seal upon your heart .. for love( Gods love in us) is a strong as death... its flames are flames of fire many waters (persecution,sin,condemnation,pressures) cannot quench this love, nor the Floods can drown it
song of songs 8:6-7

(from Mike Bickle-song of songs)

hope is ..

.. i was listening to this song by misty Edwards ..
at one point during this song she says in the lyrics disillusionment is your gift for me
the moment i heard this.. it didnt make sense to me .. how can it ever be Good to be disappointed?
how can this be a gift?
now i know why ..now i know what this means.. God has been showing me somthing lately ..... this is .. if put my Hope in ANYTHING that isnt him i WILL be disappointed ..this world is going to disapoint me .. even the people that i look up to .. they are going to make mistakes . because people are unstable .. people change.. if i put my hope in people, my hope will be unstable.. i will have hope sometimes but..not always... if people fail me .. where does my hope Go?
God is showing how much i need him .. how much i need his guidance .. his counsel..
there comes a point in my life where im aware .. im aware he is the only one, he is the only one who will NEVER fail me .. he is the only TRUE source of Hope , here is where my faith needs to be.. i cant be without him.. he is what keeps me Going.. he is the only place where our faith and our hope will sustain .. we can find a temporary refuge somewhere else.. but it will eventually crumble .. its like finding refuge in a cardboard box when you are in a storm .. God is a rock .. and no matter what .. no matter how BIG and terrrible this storm is ..this rock is stable ..
this gives me so much peace.. i know that no matter what happens .. i have my Jesus .. he will not leave me .. he takes care of me . i find my peace my hope and my refuge in him ..
this world.. is getting more and more disturbing with time .. my heart breaks for it .. because i know not everyone knows about this Rock and it goes and hides inside a cardboard box ..
when the storm comes (and it will come ) oh I pray .. may you Get to know this refuge.. MAY YOU FEEL what this feels like .. may you feel his coverage.. may you feel his love. his shelter ..