hope is ..

.. i was listening to this song by misty Edwards ..
at one point during this song she says in the lyrics disillusionment is your gift for me
the moment i heard this.. it didnt make sense to me .. how can it ever be Good to be disappointed?
how can this be a gift?
now i know why ..now i know what this means.. God has been showing me somthing lately ..... this is .. if put my Hope in ANYTHING that isnt him i WILL be disappointed ..this world is going to disapoint me .. even the people that i look up to .. they are going to make mistakes . because people are unstable .. people change.. if i put my hope in people, my hope will be unstable.. i will have hope sometimes but..not always... if people fail me .. where does my hope Go?
God is showing how much i need him .. how much i need his guidance .. his counsel..
there comes a point in my life where im aware .. im aware he is the only one, he is the only one who will NEVER fail me .. he is the only TRUE source of Hope , here is where my faith needs to be.. i cant be without him.. he is what keeps me Going.. he is the only place where our faith and our hope will sustain .. we can find a temporary refuge somewhere else.. but it will eventually crumble .. its like finding refuge in a cardboard box when you are in a storm .. God is a rock .. and no matter what .. no matter how BIG and terrrible this storm is ..this rock is stable ..
this gives me so much peace.. i know that no matter what happens .. i have my Jesus .. he will not leave me .. he takes care of me . i find my peace my hope and my refuge in him ..
this world.. is getting more and more disturbing with time .. my heart breaks for it .. because i know not everyone knows about this Rock and it goes and hides inside a cardboard box ..
when the storm comes (and it will come ) oh I pray .. may you Get to know this refuge.. MAY YOU FEEL what this feels like .. may you feel his coverage.. may you feel his love. his shelter ..

take heart

[Verse 1:]
There is a light
It burns brighter than the sun
He steals the night
And casts no shadow
There is hope
Should oceans rise and mountains fall
He never fails

So take heart
Let His love lead us through the night
Hold on to hope
And take courage again

In death by love
The fallen world was overcome
He wears the scars of our freedom
In His Name
All our fears are swept away
He never fails

All our troubles
And all our tears
God our hope
He has overcome

All our failure
And all our fear
God our love
He has overcome
All our heartache
And all our pain
God our healer
He has overcome

All our burdens
And all our shame
God our freedom
He has overcome

All our troubles
And all our tears
God our hope
He has overcome

All our failures
And all our fear
God our love
He has overcome

God our justice
God our grace
God our freedom
He has overcome

God our refuge
God our strength
God is with us
He has overcome

in arms

you know that feeling .. when you are in his arms, he is calming your spirit .. giving you a peace that cannot be described or understood.. this is what this song make me feel .. and by him I mean my beautiful God :) i just want to be in his arms .. <3 and never leave this song can be downloaded free here ------> :) comeandlive.com http://www.comeandlive.com/CLD/TheEmberDays/index.html the video , is them singing it live what an amazing song..

a crack on the wall

last night, in that moment .. im laying in my bed.. not falling asleep yet, but getting ready to... i started to pray, being vulnerable.. in front of My God .. just telling him my deepest thoughts.. i continued.. God brought an image to my mind.. i closed my eyes.. and i saw
it was a guy sitting in a dark room, he was sitting there looking into the darkness, i couldnt even see his face, i saw his shadow.. he looked comfortable there.. he was sitting in chair .. until there was sudenly a little crack on the wall.. and some light came in.. this light .. it bothered him.. he was accustomed to being in the dark.. this light , it hurt his eyes.. he tried covering the light .. putting things to cover the hole but when they touched the light they disintegrated this light was so strong he couldnt stop it.. he went close to where the light hit .. he see through the hole.. outside was so different .. it was warm.. he saw the sun ,he saw the landscape, he loooked at he where was..its was cold.. it was dark .. he was alone .. he looked around and he saw nothing worth staying for . he wants to go outside. he looks again through the hole he feels the warmth of the sunlight, the crack becomes bigger .. he gets closer ... starts looking for a way out , he gets desperate to leave.. he want to feel the suns warm embrace.. he starts looking .. he finds a switch .. he finds that he is in big room .. turns out there are other people there too..doing what he was doing just sitting there .. they dont like him .. the lights make them uncomfortable .. he sees the is a door.. someone came and turned the light off again.. but he already has his hand on the knob.. he opens the door.. even more light comes in ..some people yell at him.. some people look in shock ... he goes outside...

found my old journal a couple days ago .. read through it,
i still remenber the day i wrote this .. i was probably 15 or 16 ..
it was during this age that i started having questions..
did anyone really care about me? (other than my parents of course) ..
for some reason ..i thought i was alone in this world ... me against .. well ..everyone
and since.. i knew i couldnt win against ..everyone.. i just shut myslef down..
and wouldnt let anyone in.. that way, i wouldnt be rejected.. ( this doesnt even make sense to me now. .. but back then it was so real to me)
as i look back .. what i needed the most was to feel loved, and when i found this amazing place
.. this never ending source of love.. i was just so in awe...
I know God is many things. he is this big majestic God.. .. sometimes i remember feeling intimidated .. he is so big ..so powerful.. and im so unperfect.. this sinner.. with so many flaws.. what if im not good enough? wouldnt he want someone better?
he came to me .. he knocked on my door.. he wants me
this majestic ... big powerful God. .. loves me , .. wants me .. cares about me ..
and loves me no matter what
his love keeps me going..
its genuine.. this love wont force its way into your heart.. it wont try to manipulate you .. it wont leave when you mess up..
this is the type of love he mentions .. this is the type of love he has for us..
his Love never fails.

Romans 5:8
But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.

Romans 8:37
For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Proverbs 8:17

"I love those who love me; And those who diligently seek me will find me.

Everything

i think this skit speaks for itself..

your all i want.. your all i need .. your everything (8)

The Purpose of Your Life on a Starbuck's cup.