the resolution

i never make new years resolutions.. im always like "why bother?, im not gonna do it anyway"
i used to always say ... im gonna eat healtier.. do more excercise .. that kind of thing.. but nothing ever changed so then i came to a point where. why even bother...right? i gave up even before the year started ,
i dont remenber what goals i had set for 2010.. but i do know this year set a big mark in my life
it was a big year ..i feel like ive grown ...spiritually , emotionally, .. ive changed.
big things happened this year..some Good some bad..some in between.
i feel different,
i know im not perfect...but i feel more confident , this year i am actually making alist of things i want to accomplish..to me this is a big deal.
this year 2011 i want to be more disciplined.. that is my biggest goal..
i want to grow closer to God this year, fall in love with him even more, and i never want to stop
last year i recognize ive been lazy ... in so many ways, but i renounce .. i have so much more to live for i refuse to live a life of feeling "blah"..i know there will be days where i wont feel this way ...
but i dont want this to take over my life. i know what i need to do.. read my bible, pray, fast.. seek him insesantly
i want to live a radical life for my God.. and i refuse to conform.. this year 2011, I want even more..