Everything

i think this skit speaks for itself..

your all i want.. your all i need .. your everything (8)

The Purpose of Your Life on a Starbuck's cup.

Let It Rain

we feel the rains of your spirit
we feel the winds of your love
now the heartbeat of heaven let us hear

How He Loves

the glorious unseen- how he loves

we are his portion ,
he is our prize ,
drawn to redemption by the grace in his eyes
if grace is an ocean ,... we are all sinking.
then heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss,
and my heart turns violently inside of my chest....
and i dont have time to think about theese regrets when i think about .. oh how he loves , oh how he loves us <3

the resolution

i never make new years resolutions.. im always like "why bother?, im not gonna do it anyway"
i used to always say ... im gonna eat healtier.. do more excercise .. that kind of thing.. but nothing ever changed so then i came to a point where. why even bother...right? i gave up even before the year started ,
i dont remenber what goals i had set for 2010.. but i do know this year set a big mark in my life
it was a big year ..i feel like ive grown ...spiritually , emotionally, .. ive changed.
big things happened this year..some Good some bad..some in between.
i feel different,
i know im not perfect...but i feel more confident , this year i am actually making alist of things i want to accomplish..to me this is a big deal.
this year 2011 i want to be more disciplined.. that is my biggest goal..
i want to grow closer to God this year, fall in love with him even more, and i never want to stop
last year i recognize ive been lazy ... in so many ways, but i renounce .. i have so much more to live for i refuse to live a life of feeling "blah"..i know there will be days where i wont feel this way ...
but i dont want this to take over my life. i know what i need to do.. read my bible, pray, fast.. seek him insesantly
i want to live a radical life for my God.. and i refuse to conform.. this year 2011, I want even more..

the clown and the ballerina (oh bravo)

so i remenber the first time i heard this song (look post below) i was .. yeah yeah .. cool song .. ive liked children 18:3 for quite a while .. but the other day not so long ago .. i took the time to sit in my room and plug myself into the music .. and it hit me.. this song .. what its about( at least for me )
im that little girl the song is talking about ..how many times have i felt like im never Good enough.. seriously ... ive felt like im up against the best ..(in this song its a clown and a beautiful ballerina) but seriously to me .. ive never felt like im the best at anything ..there is always someone better .. there is always someone who makes it look prettier,someone smarter someone who is more of this and more of that ... someone ,who i compare myself to ..i look at them then i look at myself .. and i feel like im nothing much..
i feel like that little girl with her little unimpressive song ..
"Run off the stage with bitter tears of shame
Close my eyes and try so hard to make it go away,I just wanna go home and tell my teddy bear "I failed, I failed!"
to the eyes of the world.. im nothing special.. i am very aware of that.. just a heart with a willingness to try my best ..and many times even my best just isnt enough ..
ive had sooo ,soo many issues with not feeling good enough ..low selfesteem..,guarding myself with low expectations
but then there came my heavenly father..
and just like in the song..
"I turned around the corner just to hear my daddy say
Oh, bravo, you're the best, you're my only one
Oh, bravo, that will always be enough
Look at me, your song was beautiful, beautiful
And even if nobody ever knows
...Bravo"

God has opened my eyes ,i no longer want to see myslef through the eyes of the world.. he loves me ..he sees my heart and he thinks im beautiful.. this is where i find my validation.. this is where i feel like im something .. and with him .. i feel like i can do things .. i feel like it no longer just me and my little unimpressive attempt .. he has my back.

Oh, Bravo